watch it, listen to it.

Sometimes upset, nervous or depressed without special reasons.
And the mood keeps remained and gets me blue and black.
Whatever makes me murmurring and holding even laughing.
Rolling this over, stomach, in the end, gets twisted and the pain is too strong to describe

It's said that I'd better keep wathing it.
Focus on bad mood, Focus on my status not minding the others.
If so, all of a sudden, I might say "ummmmm???"


I've read it,
I've shared it,
I've expericed it though..
I am back to THAT place again that makes me absolutely frustrated,
Let's not try to understand.
just... watch it.

Just watch it.
I'm gonna watch it and listen to it.

When I want to win somebody

If I don't meet resistance with resistance, it dissipates diramatically. It just softens. OK, Let's try it.

Next time somebody says to me "I am right and you are wrong.", I'm gonna say "OKOKOK, you're right. You are right. YOU ARE RIGHT." In other words, I will not mock them. I will not be sarcastic.
After saying "You are right.", watch how, all of a sudden, their legs almost go right out form under them. They will not have any energy to blast me,

because I just took the fuel away from the fire.

flow.

A secret must be somewhere.

Not every time, but when I chase things, they seem run away. When I desperately need something, I get everything except that. Looks like.. whenever I am desperate for anything - for someone to call, for winning lottery, for getting people happy - do I create an energy around myself that pushes it away?
The more emotional I am about things, the less control I have.

How do I avoid being desperate when I am desperate? Naturally.. naturally. Since natural is "balance", it doesn't understand desperation. Of course, I can not be desperate when I am balanced.I do understand what the definition of "Natural" but have yet to go several steps more to be in line with "Natural".

Remember. Let it go, let it flow that doesn't mean I am indifferent there but just I am not forcing things.

OK, reach here, and then..?
let's see.

PS. again, I am terribly sorry for the thing happening this morning. looks like I am as nervous as you are for this special day. let me allow to prepare high-quality tissue paper and deal with it.