Should is only applicable for

Breathing, Eating, Wearing, Sleeping, Laughing, Making Boooooo. Nothing but those can not challenges people with 'Should' which gets us feel a burden and responsibility.

In spite of the point that Making boo has been included in the list for 'should', the following paragraphs are nothing to do with my constipation.

I feel suffocated like a elastic string that is unstretchable more, like a balloon that is about to burst. It's similar to the feeling when I eat nothing whole day, when I take a deep and tough breath after a full-speed running. Repeated pressing questions, life with low spirits for nothing in place for a long time is not easy to be called different. However,

It's enough that we put the self down like the string snapped and the balloon exploded. Once stopping thinking "we have to do something, Every effort goes with each result, we can get back to normal like comfortable breathing and blood-pressure.

The thing I feel difficult has been this situation or Me, myself who feel uncomfortable. The less we think, the more it's helpful and beneficial sometimes.

Unhappy means Punishment.

The past is over and done. We can not change that now. Yet we can change our thought about the past. How foolish for us to punish ourselves in the present moment because someone hurt us in the long ago past.

If we choose to believe we are helpless victims and that it's all hopeless, then the Universe will support us in that belief, and we will just go down the drain. It is vital that we release these foolish, out-moded, negative ideas and beliefs that do not support us and nourish us.

Recently, I have been very focusing on How to be free from the anger. I try to keep me affirmed and approved what I study and feel but I still face that, more often than before. This must because I am on the progress to be healed. Try and Error and I will take what I want in the end.

From the very young, I've not liked Punishment, I Love Praise and Happiness. ;)

never go beyond getting angry

「By giving up, I mean deciding, "It's all hopeless and impossible to make any changes, so why try?" The rest of it goes, "Just stay the way you are. At least you know how to handle that pain. You don't like it, but it is familiar, and you hope it won't get any worse."

To me, habitual anger is like sitting in a corner with a dunce cap on. Does this sound familiar? Something happens, and you get angry. Something else happens, and you get angry again. Something else happens, and you get angry again. Something else happens, and once again you get angry. But you never go beyond getting angry.

What good does that do? It is a foolish reaction to waste your time only getting angry. It's also a refusal to perceive life in a new and different way. It would be much more helpful to ask yourself how you are creating so many situations to get angry at.

what are you believing that causes all these frustrations? What are you giving out that attracts in others the need to irritate you? Why do you believe that to get your way you need to get angry? Whatever you give out comes back to you. The more you give out anger, the more you are creating situations for you to get angry at, like sitting in a corner with a dunce cap on, getting nowhere.」p41-You can heal your life by Louise L.Hay

I've talked with "please do not say sorry" at be my gomnara around 3 months ago that
"Why do you get angry? you just want to let them know you are angry? or you'd like to hear 'sorry'?" Anger brings another anger. (an old saying is never wrong) ‥ The next step of being angry is being angry again or awkward situation. Nothing I can take from my anger. ‥‥‥ I am now training myself. I am now trying to calm me down when I feel I want to have the pouts .

"Hey, I know you want to become sulky. But, you know what! It's of no good, fruitless. In place of any nice result, you will get a lot of bothers which you need to deal with accordingly. I know well because I have done that a lot."

Given I let my stupid pride go, I can absolutely be out of a vicious circle.

Wording is not just wording.
Everything can become true, that's why wording can be existing.
I believe so.

It's not difficult to say "That's OK", and then?

Right after "I'm sorry", my automatic answer is following, "That's OK." And then, I am sometimes at a loss for words as I have no idea what would be my next action? The best thing that I can do could be a smile, f.o.r.c.e.d smile.

Very awkward.

No need to make that kind of heavy atmosphere. Now that I say "That's OK", we don't need to have anything uncomfortable between both at least. Already that matter is out of my head. However, I'm still anxious about that and struggling for my next. I am the key person to make up for the atmosphere. The more I keep the awkward silence, the more another feels difficult to deal with the situation. Especially with my lovely family (or very close acquaintances)...

Fully aware that this sucks and makes me in trouble in the end. Whenever I face that, I do auto suggestion 'No need, No need, this is never good for you, you can not get anything by doing this'. Sometime working, but still I need more practice (weird using the word - practice, anyway). I've tried to find the root cause for that and so far the answer from me is P.R.I.D.E.

Honestly speaking, it took a lot of time for me to admit I am too proud and try to keep it. I had denied that. On the way to put me down and release all the bad from myself, I start accepting that and finally did it.

I know I'm a girl of great self-respect. I do not want to say this is not good, but when it comes to those things that are absolutely not related with the pride, can I just let it go? I have lots of cases to show my pride still by doing a greatly amazing job ever.

Newton's third of Motion

Several days ago, I tried to apply Physics theory to our life by referring Quantum physics. I had been stuck in the idea - Classic physics is not related with it, if it is, we must have the opposite response when we attract something "(+) draws (-), (-) draws (+)". But, Newton's law suddenly hits me this morning and I was definitely wrong, it's not "Nothing".

「For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.」

This is not totally different idea with my previous post in regards to responding. When we do something, that will be reacted in a way. I mean that what we give out, we get back - life is really simple. What we think about ourselves becomes the truth for us. Everybody is responsible for everything in our lives, the best and the worst. Every thought we think is creating our future. Each one of us creates our experiences by our thoughts and our feelings. The thoughts we think and the words we speak creat our experiences. We create the situations, and then we give our power away by blaming the other person for our frustration. No person, no place, and nothing has any power over us, for "we" are the only thinkers in our minds, we will find it in our lives. To the one, I can think either 'My boss is out to get me,If I think 'My boss neither appreciate to me nor understand me.' or 'My boss always treats me with respects and courtesy.' My boss is always helpful'. Each one of these thoughts will creat quite different experiences. What we believe about ourseleves and about life becomes true for us.

Understanding with Listening

It's not that easy to find the person not only listening also hearing well. Seems humans like to talk about theirs or attract the attention to themselves. At the beginning of the talk, they pay their attention on the talk well but as time goes by, they feel tired of the talk and no attention they give more. However, we keep hearing and try to give some responses based on our understanding since we also have the nature to be good. By the response, the person talking would feel strange or regrettable - "That's not what I talked to you." -

A dictionary says "Listen to" is GIVE ONE'S ATTENTION TO THEM OR IT, when hearing.

We, people easily say "I understand what you are talking about." And those people easily take it true when the other people say "Understand" that entraps themselves. I will not say everybody is same there but at least I and a number of people around me do so. To understand the situation, we try to assimilate ourselves to that situation in case that we don not have the same(similar) experience. In order to do so, Listen to the TALK we have to at least. Regardless of how much attention we give to the talk, thinking at the same situation is seldom possible now that we are all different types of the persons. OK, let's say we have the same experience like we were picked on by the class mates. A friend listens to my story and gives me a feedback "Totally understand since I have the experience 3 years ago. Cheer up, it's just a tiny thing of this huge universe. After some time you will be released and forget it soon, you need to help yourself... blah blah blah.. " I would think what on earth are you talking about? I'm more than painful and I thought you could understand me. How dare you can say it's a tiny thing! I have a difficulty to breath because of that. My friend just tried to give me some cheers and help, no bad intention behind as my friend thought she understands the situation based on her experience.

Probably, that's why we usually say that we need the person who just listens to me without any advice or opinion. Moreover, it's more than happy to have a conversation deeply by exchanging their own ideas for sure. I am still learning.

I know here must be too many contradictions, but this is the very KEY for the relationship. TALK.

Is TALK a illness or a medicine?

No doubt Talking is so important of the relationship between persons. The more we talk to each other, The closer we can be to each, The more we understand whatoever. However, Is seriously TALK always good? is it possible that "The more we talk, The more we get hurt by that true that really happened or the lie that we are decieved with."?

All of the energies are responding.

「How often have we said,"That's the way I am," or "That's the way it is" Those specific words are really saying that that's what we believe to be true for us. Usually, what we believe is only someone else's opinion we have incorporated into our belief systems. No doubt it fits right in with all the other things we believe.

Are you one of the many people who will get up in the morning see that it's raining, and say, "Oh, what a lousy day!"? It is not a lousy day. It is only a wet day. If we wear the appropriate clothing and change our attitude, we can have a lot of rainy day fun. If it is really our belief that rainy days are lousy days, then we will always greet rain with a sinking heart. We will fight the day rather than flow with what is happening in the moment. If we want a joyous life, we must think joyous thoughts. If we want a propsperous life, we must think prosperous thoughts. If we want a loving life, we must think loving thoughts. Whatever we send out mentally or verbally will come back to us in like form.

THE POINT OF POWER IS ALWAYS IN THE PRESENT MOMENT.」p36-You can heal your life by Louise L.Hay


According to the Modern physics, all the substances including wave are Energy itself. Thought can not be exceptional. Whatever I have in my mind and brain is working as Energy and that Energy is responding in a way. The Good response is upto the Good energy which is the very good thought. What if the reponse is too late for me to feel nothing? So what? At least I don't have to distort my face that causes stupid wrinkles (oh no, please).

Before getting the response of energies, A thought is no more than the thought. I can smile and laugh with thinking positive and good. How great it is! I can be happy, by thinking only.

Be my gomnara 2

Here I appoint Google blog (blogspot) as my 2nd place.