2009-06-20

Because I am so sure..





I am surrounded by unaccountable people caring me.
That makes me blue because I am so sure...

2009-06-16

2009-06-14

waste on justifying and pursuading

No matter what the event is, I don't need to justify how come I don't feel good and I don't need to justify how come I should feel differently. I don't need to blame whatever it is I think the reason is that's keeping me from feeling good.

All of that is wasted effort. Normally we think, to find out this root cause there, we would try not to be there, but reflecting my case, it happens more and more since it's already memorized somewhere within me regardless of the efforts I try not to do with.
Just try to feel better RIGHT NOW.

With that better feeling, sometimes we act too much. ;)
Even in my rightness about a subject, when I try to push my rightness toward another who disagrees, no matter how right I am, it causes more pushing against. In other words, it is not that any real allowing of what I want can take place until I stop pushing.

My friend who is a teacher in a middle school has a issue-making student in her class. She has spent a lot of efforts on giving him her care by saying it's not good to skip the class, it's not good to smoke, you'd better be in time at school @@@@. Even after almost 1 term, he was not changed. She felt sick and tired of it and she told him

"If you think your acting is right and OK, just do it. I will not care you more no matter what you do, all are up to you. From now on, I will hand off from you. "

For a few of days after that, he was not shown even at school but his teacher, my friend did not contact him. He came to her 4 days later and he told her that "Teacher, I had thought it's free to skip the school and do smoke and so on and so on.... because school looks like jail and I'm like a prisoner. So I was trying to be against no matter what you say. However, now I realize it's not and understand why you did so to me. Sorry and thanks"

She spent more than 4 months on teaching him but it was in vain.
He spent 4 days on being aware of where he stands and he got it.
Teaching and Understanding is nothing to do with the time, the point is are we ready or not.

2009-06-03

what the bleep do we know

Everything is vibrational. "I'm letting it in or I'm not. And I'm using lots of things as my excuse to let it in, or as my excuse not to let it in." But it's all vibrational. Otherwise, we should be able to take 100 people, give them all identical exposure to experience, and get identical results. And you can't do that. You'd get 100 different results, and you'd get several big differences in results.

# watched last year being aware of nothing and watched again being aware of a little and will watch again and again taking it as mine
# will have post-posts on this. very interesting. And again, I'm proud of myself majoring in Physics.

2009-06-01

Truth can also be variable

Physical humans are saying, "Give me the truth, give me the truth." forever. Seems that there are all kinds of truths and we can choose the truths that serve us.

There are many people feeling great discomfort with that. But the thing that we need to hear about it is, There is a truth of cancer, and there is a truth of wellness. Which truth serves us? I can activate either of them within myself, and make it my truth. Truths are created as they are not static. They are not conditions that exist that then it is your obligation to identify and catalog. I am the creator of my truths as I told before every body's true is different and that true is not the truth - and what I am living s my truth.