When you talk about your mother with negative ideas, there's a thought "Why don't you TRY to understand your mom as you already know she will not change or can not be changed anyhow? in my mind. Like you said that's enough. You've tried to help her to recognize how important it is to think good and positive as well as love herself but seems it's not working well. We have to be noticed that Each people have its own different idea or concept. We can introduce, We can encourage, We can support. But we can not change them. Even though they are changed with a lot of our efforts, that's not what we change them but what they change themselves by getting helps from us.
Much to the interests, we are in ACCORD with the idea where physical diseases come from. They come from How to think. So you believe that your mother calls and attracts that disease to ask for the attention and love towards her. Yes, you definitely know the answer. What about just giving a willing consent there? You may give her attention as much as she wants and you can do pay. Are you afraid that she will ask for it someday again if you do that now? Moreover supposing it really happens, you would be sick of the situation and possibly not love her more?
Well, as you usually say, FOLLOW your feeling then by focusing NOW. You spend much time as well as your precious energy on thinking why it happened again and sighing. Why don't you use that resource to correspond to her requests? That's neither because you are her son nor she wants. That's needed for you to stay fine (at least not anxious, frustrated).
You do take care of others well. Do you think that's because you would like to make them happy? No my friend, that's because you would feel happy by letting them happy. You are the main reason for that. Accomplishment, Confidence whatever it is. Imagine Santa Claus. (Let's say they exist.) Being around everywhere to delivery Xmas present, what if they are not happy? what if they just feel bored and tired? Can they keep working or acting as Santa? Because they like the JOB, Santa can still exist in Children's dream and imagination. I believe and it's true that you are THAT SANTA who enjoys having the JOB, aren't you?
You may say "hey, what do you know? you never understand me." Absolutely! One can never understand Another. However, I don't see any problem just to give you a try. This could be ignored, I will not care as I am inspired while I leave a note here.
Honestly, I hesitated before this note. You know I am telling you please try to understand and accept your mom, why can't you do so? And.... how about me? My question is back to me saying "why don't you understand and accept what your friend said and thinks?"
Everything is running around in a circle.
It could be like a wheel on which we must step very hard but how about converting it?
We can feel like we are in the amusement part having MERRY-GO-AROUND.
Happy regards,
