But the point is.. what.

I have kept saying to the others and even to myself I never do what I don't want to do. Seems applicable everywhere such as office, home, school, in public - all in this society. It could be good and bad but I haven't planned to change that attitude anyway.

One day, one of my friends asked me "Do you like constipation?"

For nearly 5 years, I have been freakingly suffering from constipation (no matter what you guess, that will be more than that) I've tried a lot of solutions which are well known, but all result in failure. Pretty sure there're few people around me who are new to this and I am awfully sick of this. Until I was asked with the question above, I had not noticed of this. How stupid! How I am still stuck in there what I hate for almost 5 years, how can I still say I never do what I don't want to do.

The point is 'what about my inner'.
Easily figure it out that this is good, that is bad out there. However, it's like I have zero idea what 'ME', my inner is asking for myself. It must be very near existing, I didn't get my eyes open or just didn't want to know - ignored.

I am born a wanter. I know wanting is a good thing and I'd like to 'want' as much as I can meaning there's no limitation. I absolutely know well wanting is a very good thing.
Let's find out one by one.